(Monday / 23:43)
"You got selected", he said with widened eyes and the ends of his lips curved up a little. I looked at him uninterested. Was I suppose to shriek with joy anyway? It was not what I had in mind. I feel so manipulated sometimes. We are all but tools to enhance the name, no?
Partly I am at fault too. I didn't have the strength to make the right choice for myself. I didn't have the courage to choose what I exactly want. I am manipulated because I place myself there for you to do so. /bitchslap
That evening I was at NTUC where I (or was it him) accidentally knocked into this guy because it was really crowded. I apologised. He gave me angry stare and continue walking forward, shaking his head at the same time.
Today I was on my way to the train station where this old lady stopped abruptly in front of me right after she crossed the road. Naturally I changed my lane and moved to the right. After taking a few steps forward, this sari lady slightly pushed me aside and 'tsk' me.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE? DO I LOOK SO DELICATE THAT YOU GUYS COULD NOT HELP IT BUT TO INTIMIDATE ME? I really wish Singaporeans can be more gracious, especially towards one another. Like why the hell is there a need to push and rush into the train?
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